My weak heart

..02.32 am , I was at work with no serious thoughts, just a happy heart .chit chatting with colleagues..when suddenly I turned back to see my cell with a missed call..quickly checked whose it was and saw that it was from home..I was stuck for few fraction of seconds and caught the next call they made and answered the call with a very worried tone asking 'what happened?? ..who won't be worried with an unusual call in the wee hours ..my lil sis answered the call saying 'they got a call which didn't look like local hence called to check if it was me so as to ensure that I'm fine here... they were as worried as how I was.. what a relief to know that the call was nothing serious ..took a deep breath and spoke with mom after which I felt much much lighter..the same way round to them..

This is what happens every time I get a call from home..I think I have a very weak heart..I wish somebody could help me come out of this.. I react the same way when it comes to my near and dear ones.. I keep wandering with all 'unwanted strange negative' thoughts ..what if they say something bad happened..what if something is wrong at home..what if this occured ..??? Why can't I just think 'everything will be fine?? I just keep imagining and creating strange scenarios all in my mind just to make my blood pressure go low ..

I have seen people from whom I have learnt to take life easy though I know its not as easy as they say but thats how you will learn to survive with all the ups and downs..I know I should be like one... I will try to be one..